Sorry I haven't updated in so long

It is a really bad habit of mine. This blog doesn't affect anyone but me, yet I feel like I am letting down a child.

Oh well, at least my own disappointment only lasts for five minutes!

So when you are extremely confused, can't make sense of or understand your own emotions, what do you recommend to recollect ones thoughts?

A reevaluation of ones life? A ninety degree change of direction? I have been so emotionally lost this weekend. I don't know what I feel. Is it happiness? Sadness? Anger? Relief? Tension?  I am not sad or disappointed per se, I just honestly don't know what I feel, only that I feel.