Reboot

No more cringe pics, Tumblrinaction, or other similar media where people are mocked.

Time for a more creative and positive approach.

Many things in my mind

This post might or might not be interesting, it might or might not be incoherent and it might or might not be ranting. Just going to write.

Currently sitting in a Starbucks near my share house in Korakuen enjoying an overpriced beverage with too many words in its name. Thinking what to write.

Many things have been going through my mind lately, as they seem to do from time to time. I don't really know where to start. I have lately been so mentally exhausted with school and work at the same time that I don't know what I am doing from time to time. I can't remember what I did last week, much less what I studied or enjoyed.

Since I came to Japan I have met many wonderful people, even if we only met once I got a new interesting perspective on things, all of them with their own experiences, life goals, ideas and opinions. I have been surprised, shocked even, in many cases when talking to them. I have been asked many questions that never crossed my mind, shown life styles I couldn't even dream of, and at times I have felt overwhelmed by all this new information. Thinking that you at least know half of what the world has a to offer and then shown that it is not even close can be a bit scary.

And while I do love being in Japan, the novelty is slowly starting to wear off, or rather I feel like it might be time to move and move on, and if want to start the next chapter of my life. But I don't know how or what. It's like a writers block but for your life decisions. Find a job? Apply for a different subject outside of Japanese? What else is there to do?

And this whole relationship thing. It still feels so foreign to me. I thought you just meet the right person and you know that this is the person you want to spend your life with. But seriously, that sounds so naive. How many times have I not felt this before just to have it crushed or doubted into dust?

I was asked by an acquaintance "well, what can YOU provide in a relationship?". Am I to provide something? Security? Comfort? Money? Doesn't at least the two first come naturally?

Maid cafe

A classmate finally dragged me to one of the infamous maid cafés strewn across akihabara. I always wanted to go but felt so embarrassed to go there by myself.

We got greeted with a super kawaii "Welcome, master!" And shown to a table made for people half my size. We picked what we wanted to eat and the maid helped us "inject love" into our food by chanting "moe moe kyun".

It was fun for a one time experience, but really awkward to be treated like a little girl. Oh well, got a picture of me in bunny ears and one of the maids.

Owl cafe in tsukijima

I had heard of these animal themed cafés and wanted to try one. I prefer cats, but thought it would be fun to go to an owl cafe as I've never seen one in real life.

They are very popular and it is unfortunately very difficult to get into one, but we got to take a picture with one outside. (For 500 yen! Freaking extortion for just a picture taken with my own camera, but hey. Supply and demand, folks. These owls don't selfie themselves.)

Sushi eating contest

Not much to say, had a sushi eating contest back in March and won by one plate, two pieces of sushi per plate. That's a lot of sushi.

Memories of an event long past

This photo was the last taken of me on the slopes in nozawa onsen back in February.

Wow, it was that long ago since I snowboarded?

Definitely need to go snowboard again!

Sorry I haven't updated in so long

It is a really bad habit of mine. This blog doesn't affect anyone but me, yet I feel like I am letting down a child.

Oh well, at least my own disappointment only lasts for five minutes!

So when you are extremely confused, can't make sense of or understand your own emotions, what do you recommend to recollect ones thoughts?

A reevaluation of ones life? A ninety degree change of direction? I have been so emotionally lost this weekend. I don't know what I feel. Is it happiness? Sadness? Anger? Relief? Tension?  I am not sad or disappointed per se, I just honestly don't know what I feel, only that I feel.